In early February, I was sitting in Sunday School and the lesson was on Christ calling his Apostles as well as a few of his early miracles. My mind sometimes wanders during these lessons, and I was pondering Peter's words to the Savior when asked to let down their nets, yet again, after a feckless night of fishing. Luke 5-"And Simon answering said unto him, Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing: nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net.
6And when they had this done, they inclosed a great multitude of fishes: and their net brake." For whatever reason, and you will know the reason soon enough, I was overcome with the Spirit, and with peace and comfort. I thought how indeed I could relate to these fishermen! I have been toiling here in NYC at tedious jobs, for a long time now, visiting fertility clinics and adoption agencies, trying to figure out what the heck is going on with my life, and I got nothin' to show for it! AAARGH. And yet, at the Lord's command (His timing), the nets were filled, just as my own personal family "net"work will be filled someday when the Lord wills it. This fleeting moment helped me to let go of anxiety and to feel the Lord's power. It was a beautiful spiritual experience.
The following Tuesday, I finally started wondering why I'd been so tired, nauseous, sore, and cranky for the past couple of weeks... this was new (well, not the cranky part). A random thought struck me and so I took a pregnancy test and boom! There it was - my own personal miracle. I still can't believe it. Its incredible. Every day I'm still in shock. And I'm 12 weeks along as of March 22, thus our baby is due October 4. We weren't even trying (is that TMI?) This is my rescue from the bondage of menial jobs, its my rescue from the bondage of slaving away to pay the NYC rent without feeling real purpose and/or any vision. The Savior is truly the SAVIOUR - he saves us from our own types of bondage in miraculous ways.
So, there you have it. We are so excited and so blessed. We could use your faith and prayers that everything will go smoothly and that we'll have a new, healthy baby Nelson later this year.
What names do you like? We're leaning toward Sydney (girl) and Jonah (boy).
